After Recklessly Courting Death, I Caught the Attention of a Yandere - Chapter 136

All those poisons were ones he had never encountered before, so he had no way to immediately formulate an antidote.

When he discovered there was no antidote, Xiao Yueqing thought that if he could quickly find the treasure map, the medicinal pill inside should be able to save both his and Yun Dan’s lives.

If he hadn’t met Yun Dan, he would never have yearned to live a normal person’s life.

He had thought his life would remain frozen at this moment, and until his death, no one would truly care about him.

But heaven let him meet Yun Dan and made him understand what feelings were.

Yet he never imagined that a strange twist of fate would cause Yun Dan to hate him to the bone.

He lowered his head slightly and kissed Yun Dan’s forehead.

“I wanted to live a normal life, longed for someone to care about me, for someone to wait for me to come home for dinner. But if I’m not ruthless, everyone wants my life.”

“I did hide some things from you, but my intention was to keep you from getting dragged into all this mess. I was wrong. I shouldn’t have fed you poison, shouldn’t have used you as a spy, and shouldn’t have dragged you into this kind of life. I’m sorry…”

He hadn’t shed tears in many years. The last time he cried was ten years ago when Tang Lan tortured him half to death.

But Yun Dan made him truly feel the taste of heartache.

He had never been a kind person—using any means necessary for his goals, his hands stained with blood.

But Xiao Yueqing had met Yun Dan, and he simply couldn’t explain himself clearly.

This tribulation in his fate was destined to be insurmountable.

Yun Dan frowned, vaguely sensing that someone seemed to be talking to her.

When she opened her eyes and saw Xiao Yueqing, she instinctively pushed him away.

“Xiao Yueqing, I tried hard, and I struggled. I once thought that after trying for so long, I would get a response from you. Looking back now, I was wrong. You don’t like me, so I won’t like you anymore either.”

“I used to think that once you found the treasure map and cured the poison, we would retire together. But what am I to you? I’m just a chess piece you can sacrifice at any time to achieve your own hegemony.”

“I should thank you. Without your poison tormenting me to the point where life was worse than death, I wouldn’t have chosen to give up on you. Choosing to leave you was a decision I made with every ounce of strength I had. From now on, we’ll each marry separately and owe each other nothing.”

Xiao Yueqing was shocked by those four words—”owe each other nothing.”

He had never imagined that one day Yun Dan would be so heartless.

He tightly grasped Yun Dan’s hand and pressed it against his heart.

“Yun Dan, look at me. I beg you to look at me and let me explain. I did hide some things from you, but I never wanted you to die. I was wrong. I shouldn’t have fed you poison. I won’t let you die—please believe me.”

If she had heard these words under normal circumstances, Yun Dan would probably have been overjoyed.

She never would have thought that Xiao Yueqing would one day confess to her so sincerely, begging for her forgiveness.

But after all the previous lies, Yun Dan was no longer willing to believe him.

She pushed Xiao Yueqing away and pulled her hand back.

“Yun Dan is not someone who would die without Xiao Yueqing. She may cling to life, but she’s not afraid of death. Knowing you were using her, she still willingly did so much for you.”

“Knowing your poison had no antidote, she still willingly took it. Even now, I don’t hate you, because I don’t love you anymore, so I don’t hate you.”

“Xiao Yueqing, if you feel you owe me, then go and seize that treasure map properly. You’ve been planning for so many years—isn’t it all to find that treasure? If you can find what you’re looking for, then my suffering won’t have been in vain.”

These words seemed ordinary enough, but Xiao Yueqing, who knew Yun Dan well, understood that she was making her final farewell to him.

This time, she had completely given up on him.

Xiao Yueqing still couldn’t believe why Yun Dan would suddenly be so heartless, not even willing to give him a chance to explain.

But when he thought back to how he had hurt and deceived Yun Dan, he realized she must hate him thoroughly to say such things.

Just a short while ago they were imagining their future together, yet now they had to go their separate ways.

What did she mean by “marry separately and owe each other nothing”?

How could they owe each other nothing?

Before, Xiao Yueqing didn’t understand feelings and had never experienced them, but now that he understood what feelings were, how could he give up so easily?

He produced a dagger from somewhere and pressed it into Yun Dan’s hand.

“If you feel upset, stab me a few times.”

He pointed the blade tip at his heart, his eyes red-rimmed as he looked at her. “Stab me in the heart—as long as it makes you feel better, it’s fine.”

In the end, Yun Dan couldn’t bear to stab him. She just threw the dagger to the ground and said coldly, “Don’t come looking for me again. I don’t want to see you anymore. Let’s call it even. I know I won’t live much longer, but I don’t hate you that much now. I suppose it’s because I’ve come to terms with it.”

Yun Dan knew that if this blade went in, Xiao Yueqing truly wouldn’t survive.

But hating this person was one thing—Yun Dan had never thought of actually taking his life.

Besides, she had already told him they were breaking clean, so nothing else really mattered.

Yun Dan turned her back, no longer looking at Xiao Yueqing.

“Just go. I said I don’t want to see you again. I know I won’t live much longer, but it doesn’t matter at all. I have no resentment about ending up like this. You could say I brought it all on myself, and it’s my fault for trusting you too much, never imagining I’d be fooled by your two identities.”

Xiao Yueqing wanted to explain, but as he tried to explain, Yun Dan started coughing up blood again, and he had no choice but to call Ye Bei back in.

As soon as Ye Bei entered, he saw Yun Dan coughing up blood again.

He quickly ran to sit by the bed and said to Xiao Yueqing, “Since she doesn’t want to see you, leave quickly. I told you not to agitate her anymore. Manor Master Xiao, if you want the treasure map, I can give you mine, but please don’t bother my disciple anymore.”

Ye Bei had never been particularly obsessed with the treasure map.

To him, keeping this map served no purpose.

Now that his disciple had indirectly ended up like this because of this treasure map, Ye Bei hated it more than anyone.

Since Xiao Yueqing wanted this treasure map, he might as well give it to him—after all, keeping it was just a worthless piece of paper.

He reached into his robe and pulled out a treasure map, handing it over.

Though Xiao Yueqing was quite surprised, when he examined the treasure map, it was indeed genuine.

He hadn’t expected Ye Bei to give him the treasure map so easily.

Ye Bei seemed to know what Xiao Yueqing wanted to say and simply replied calmly, “My disciple has already been harmed like this by this treasure map. I don’t want my map to bring misfortune to anyone else. Take it.”