I Want to Have a Girlfriend Too - Chapter 51

I know being impatient is not good.

 

(Alice’s point of view)

 

　I hear the sound of banging on the cutting board.

　We are now visiting Tokimori-kun’s house.

　In the kitchen, Tokimori-kun is cooking a meal for us while Maya Senpai and I――

 

” ” ……… ” “

 

　We are sitting on the sofa in the living room without talking to each other.

 

　It’s awkward……!

 

　It’s good that I dared her vigorously when before, but when it comes time to talk to her alone, I get nervous.

　Moreover, Maya Senpai has a serious expression on her face, contrary to her usual cheerful mood.

　…Ugh, the air is heavy.

 

“Hey, Alice-chan.”

“Ye-yefts !? “

 

　Maya Senpai opened her mouth to break the silence.

　I was so nervous that I bit my tongue.

 

“You don’t have to be nervous. I’m not going to get angry with you.”

 

　Even if you say that…

　I saw Maya Senpai talking with a serious face for the first time.

　Her tone was slightly different from usual, and it was impossible not to be nervous.

 

　B-but!

　If I get scared here, I’ll never be able to beat Maya Senpai!

 

　So I take a slow, deep breath and open my mouth, trying to lose some of my nervousness.

 

“I understand.”

 

　Yes, I could say it without being nervous!

　I can do it if I try hard enough!

 

“Well, let me ask you straight…Alice, you like Nozomu-kun, don’t you? “

 

　She’s really direct…

　Normally, I’d be too shy to say anything, but I have to say something here.

 

“Yes, I like Tokimori-kun.”

 

　So I look at Maya Senpai and answer with a serious expression.

　Then, after a few moments of silence, Maya Senpai suddenly let out a distracted voice.

 

“Ahー, I knew itー!”

 

　Maya Senpai relaxed and plopped down on the table.

　With that action, the heavy atmosphere that had just been created dissipated.

 

　Huh? What’s wrong with her?

　As soon as I said I liked Tokimori-kun, the heavy atmosphere disappeared. ――I had expected the heavy atmosphere to continue or even heavier.

 

“Sorry, Alice-chan. Let’s have a light chat.”

“What do you mean…? “

“I mean, let’s chat casually like we usually do! I already know you’re serious, Alice-chan.”

 

　S-so, that’s what you mean…

　The heavy atmosphere I had just experienced must mean that she was seriously testing my love for Tokimori-kun.

 

　That means Maya Senpai could tell that I really liked him…

　T-that’s good.

 

“Thank you very much.”

“No problem! Don’t worry about it! Sorry that I made the atmosphere a bit heavy〜.”

 

　Maya Senpai looked up, waved her hand and replied.

 

“Oh, by the way, I like Nozomu-kun too! We’re rivals from now on〜!”

 

　I wish you hadn’t said that like it was an afterthought…

　I was at a loss for a response and couldn’t help but laugh.

 

　Uh, well, this is Maya Senpai as usual… but I wish she had said [I like him.] more seriously.

 

“So, Alice, what do you like about Tokimori-kun? “

“Ah, umm…”

 

　I was puzzled.

　I mean, what do I like about Tokimori-kun??

　I can say it as much as she wants, but telling her is too embarrassing!

 

　But I have to confess something… and if I don’t say it right now… I don’t think I’ll ever be able to say it.

　I mustered my courage and answered her.

 

“I-I’d like to say that he’s kind and that he always comes to me w-when I’m in trouble… “

 

　I said it!!!

　Ahh, something like this was more embarrassing than I thought it would be… but how embarrassing is it to confess my feelings?

 

　I think about it, and my face turns red with embarrassment.

 

“I see〜.I understand〜.”

 

　Maya Senpai crossed her arms and nodded her head.

　It seems that Maya Senpai also understands me.

 

“What does Maya Senpai like about Tokimori-kun…? “

“Uhh? Me? “

 

　Maya Senpai sounded a little surprised and a little off.

 

“Me…if it’s me… “

 

　Then, Maya Senpai looked at the ceiling as if she was nostalgic and muttered.

　Her expression was different from her usual cheerful one, and it was a complex mixture of bitterness and happiness.

 

“I… was bullied a lot in the past.”

“What ! ? “

 

　I couldn’t help but let out a cry of surprise.

 

　I couldn’t believe it.

　I can’t imagine Maya Senpai being bullied in the past, considering the current Maya Senpai personality.

 

“Well, I don’t want to talk about that because it would get too dark, but Nozomu-kun was the one who helped me. I think that’s when I fell in love with Nozomu-kun….”

” ……… “

“I couldn’t think of what I like about him, but if I had to guess, I would say that… he doesn’t give up on weak people.”

 

　Maya Senpai says in a slightly enraptured voice.

　Even as I listen, I can tell that she likes Tokimori-kun.

 

“Really, I’m the one who should be grateful.”

 

　Maya Senpai muttered quietly at the end.

 

　I think Maya Senpai and Tokimori-kun must have a very deep relationship.

　Not only because they have known each other for a long time but also because they have supported each other.

 

　I don’t think I could have the same kind of relationship with him.

　This relationship was made possible because it’s the two of them.

 

　…Ugh, once again, I feel the difference with Maya Senpai.

 

“Oh, Alice, will you listen to this Senpai’s advice? “

 

　As I was feeling down about the difference with Maya Senpai, Maya Senpai suddenly called out to me.

　What is it? Is she advising me to give up because of the depth of their relationship?

 

　――No, Maya Senpai won’t say that.

 

　…I think my thoughts are becoming more and more negative.

 

“I don’t mean to send salt to the enemy, but don’t be impatient. Nozomu-kun will never look back at you if you are impatient.”

“What? What do you mean by that?”

“Hey, the food is ready!”

 

　I asked Maya Senpai and heard Tokimori-kun’s voice from the kitchen.

 

“Yes! ――I will not interfere with or support your love for Nozomu-kun because we are rivals. But you seem to be in a hurry now, Alice, so please keep this in mind.”

 

　With these words, Maya Senpai leaves for the kitchen.

 

　I am left alone in the living room.

 

　…I’m in a hurry. I am indeed in a hurry now.

　I would never normally come to Tokimori-kun’s house for dinner like this.

　Maybe I was afraid I might lose, or he would be taken away from me, seeing them like this.

 

　It is true that haste may not lead to a good result.

　The more impatient I am, the more confused my partner will be, and I may not get the expected result.

 

　――――but

 

“It can’t be helped… because I really don’t have time.”

 

　My mutterings like that remained in the living room of Tokimori-kun’s house.