It’s Okay Even If I Die

For some reason, Fang Zhou felt a guilty conscience, as if he were a thief.

He didn’t understand why he felt the need to change his clothes.

Maybe he was genuinely afraid of Qin Yun and wanted to avoid unnecessary trouble.

Fang Zhou could only comfort himself with this thought as he made his way to Qiao Sisi’s hospital room.

The only thing he could be thankful for was that Qin Yun usually worked in the surgical building.

Qiao Sisi was in the inpatient department, and there was a certain distance between the two buildings.

Since Qin Yun had just started her shift, she wouldn’t have time to come over, so Fang Zhou needed to hurry and leave as soon as possible.

Coincidentally, just as he reached the floor, he ran into his neighbor, Xiao Wu, outside the room.

She was holding a bag of fresh flowers and fruits, seemingly just returning from outside.

Seeing Fang Zhou, she was slightly surprised.

“Oh? You came? I thought you wouldn’t.”

Xiao Wu’s expression was one of genuine surprise. After all, the phone call from Fang Zhou this morning had given her the impression that he wouldn’t come.

Fang Zhou nodded lightly, glanced at the items in her hands, and asked softly, “Are those for Qiao Sisi?”

Xiao Wu nodded, her expression lively.

“Yes! I didn’t realize it was her at first.

Last night, when she was squatting outside, I was a bit impatient.

If I had known it was Sisi, I would have invited her to wait at my place. She wouldn’t have caught a cold.”

The more she spoke, the heavier the stone in Fang Zhou’s heart became.

So, she really did fall ill.

And it was because she spent the night at his doorstep.

It was early autumn, and although the temperature wasn’t that low, staying outside at midnight would definitely feel chilly.

Qiao Sisi wasn’t made of iron, so falling ill seemed inevitable.

Yesterday, he had predicted she might use the pity tactic, and today it had come true.

Fang Zhou didn’t know how to evaluate his own mouth.

Whatever he said seemed to come true, like a crow’s mouth.

Maybe Qiao Sisi wasn’t intentionally using the pity tactic; she was just stubborn and wouldn’t leave until she saw him.

Fang Zhou sighed, suddenly feeling he shouldn’t have come.

If he did, things would get complicated again.

While he was hesitating, Xiao Wu had already opened the door and shouted inside, “Sisi! The person you were waiting for is here! Fang Zhou is at the door!”

Fang Zhou glanced at her, thinking: I really should thank you for making the decision for me.

Putting away unnecessary emotions, Fang Zhou followed Xiao Wu into the room.

Inside, as expected, Zhu Jie was already there.

She looked at him in surprise, seemingly not expecting him to come.

Zhu Jie had just said a lot of bad things about Fang Zhou, and now facing him, she felt a bit guilty.

She glanced at Qiao Sisi, who was staring at the man at the door with a blank expression.

She neither smiled nor cried, like an emotionless puppet, and Zhu Jie silently lit a candle for Fang Zhou.

Good luck, young man.

Zhu Jie stood up silently, taking the noisy Xiao Wu with her, leaving space for Fang Zhou and Qiao Sisi to talk.

This pair of estranged lovers surely had a lot to say.

Fang Zhou took a few steps forward, looking at the needle in Qiao Sisi’s hand and her pale face.

After a moment of silence, he said, “Take care of your health. Your body is the capital for everything.”

Hearing this, Qiao Sisi finally reacted. She let out a mocking laugh, her eyes filled with a hint of ridicule.

“Even if I die, it doesn’t matter. No one cares anyway.”

In truth, she was a bit surprised.

She thought Fang Zhou wouldn’t come, but he did.

However, after waiting all night without seeing him, Qiao Sisi still harbored some resentment.

Coupled with the news of Fang Zhou and Qin Yun’s relationship, it all accumulated in her heart.

Like a volcano ready to erupt, though Qiao Sisi’s face didn’t show it.

A skilled actress like her could manage her expressions well, making it hard for anyone to see her true thoughts unless she wanted them to.

Fang Zhou frowned at her words.

He knew Qiao Sisi shouldn’t have such thoughts.

But given his current position, he couldn’t really comfort her, only offering support as a friend.

“That’s not true. You have fans, an agent, and many good friends. They all care about you.”

Qiao Sisi’s expression finally became more animated.

She lifted her eyelids, looking at Fang Zhou, and slowly said, “An agent only cares because I can make money and bring profit to their company.

If one day I fall out of favor and become a minor celebrity, do you think she would still look at me?”

“And those fans, they only like me because I can play small roles.

If one day I can’t act anymore and become a difficult and pretentious artist, do you think anyone would still tolerate me?”

Qiao Sisi’s smile grew larger.

“As for friends, are you talking about those who only show up for meals and drinks?

What kind of friends are they?”

The more she spoke, the lower her voice became, and her expression grew more desolate.

It was as if she had lost all hope in life, trapped in a fog she couldn’t escape.

Fang Zhou was silent for a moment, thinking of her past, and his heart ached. How could she have such thoughts?

In his eyes, Qiao Sisi had always been the proud and charming little princess.

“Someone will love you.”

“No matter if you’re a shining star, an unknown extra, or an ordinary person, someone will genuinely love you.”

Fang Zhou’s voice was steady and strong, bringing a sense of security.

Qiao Sisi felt a lump in her throat, and her resentment and hatred towards him were suddenly suppressed, as if tied up in a black bag.

And the string to the bag was in Fang Zhou’s hand. He could release it anytime he wanted.

Qiao Sisi hated herself for being soft-hearted and easily swayed.

Just a few words from Fang Zhou, and she couldn’t hold it together.

She had just been so angry, wanting to keep Fang Zhou by her side forever.

She found it strange.

Despite playing so many roles and witnessing so many genuine emotions, why did her own life have to be so roller-coaster?

Maybe Fang Zhou’s words had an effect, as Qiao Sisi’s expression became less gloomy, and her eyes clearer.

She blinked and softly asked, “So why did you get back with Qin Yun?”

This was the real question Qiao Sisi wanted to ask after seeing Fang Zhou. Everything else was just a prelude.

Now it was Fang Zhou’s turn to be silent.

How could he explain?

Say that Qin Yun was his sister’s savior, that she found the only matching kidney, and that she made many sacrifices for it.

It would sound like Qin Yun was using her favor to force him to be with her.

Even though that was the truth.

But Fang Zhou didn’t want to say that in front of others.

It would make Qin Yun seem like a despicable person, even though she had helped him greatly.

Fang Zhou’s silence was deafening.

Qiao Sisi felt her head buzzing, as if countless insects were flying and screaming inside, trying to drive her mad.

But Qiao Sisi wouldn’t lose her mind. She wanted to hold on to the last bit of hope and ask Fang Zhou one more question.

“And what about me? What am I to you?”

Fang Zhou looked at her seriously and solemnly answered, “You were my first love, and you hold a special place in my heart.”

A special place, meaning no one else could compare? Qiao Sisi felt a secret joy rising in her heart.

But before she could be happy, Fang Zhou continued, “But I’m sorry, I can’t give you any response now.

I can’t be your emotional support. We can still be friends, but not lovers.

I already have a girlfriend.”

Qiao Sisi’s expression became uncontrollable. She gritted her teeth and said, “Who wants to be your friend? I have plenty of friends; I don’t need you!”

The more she spoke, the angrier she became, like a snowball growing larger and larger.

Without thinking, she grabbed the pillow behind her and threw it at Fang Zhou.

“I don’t need a friend like you!”

As she spoke, her voice choked with sobs.

The once strong and proud girl suddenly became pitiful, like a squashed rice ball, evoking sympathy.

Moreover, Qiao Sisi was still ill. Her excessive movements even caused the blood in her hand to start flowing back.

Fang Zhou’s pupils shrank, and he quickly tried to calm her down.

“Don’t get agitated, Sisi. You’re still on an IV!”

He stepped forward, holding her flailing left hand.

With his other hand, he pressed the nurse call button.

This was beyond his ability to handle; it needed a professional.

Qiao Sisi’s left hand was restrained, but her right hand was still free. She slapped Fang Zhou’s shoulder.

The force was negligible to Fang Zhou, like a cat’s scratch.

But Qiao Sisi, having previously hurt Fang Zhou, was startled by her own actions.

She quieted down, her eyes filled with endless grievance.

She already felt guilty for hurting Fang Zhou before.

She knew she had psychological issues and that she might do something irreversible when she lost control.

So this time, she tried to restrain herself from hurting Fang Zhou.

The nurse arrived in time, surprised by what she saw.

“Oh my, what are you two doing?”

Seeing the blood flowing back into Qiao Sisi’s IV, she couldn’t help but scold, “Why are you so agitated? Don’t you want to get better?”

To the nurse, the patient’s safety was paramount.

They really disliked patients who caused problems due to emotional agitation.

If the family came to complain, they would blame the hospital for not taking good care of the patient.

And who would the hospital blame? The frontline nurses, of course.

The frustration of being a worker was immense.

Fang Zhou pursed his lips, then let go of Qiao Sisi and politely apologized, “Sorry for the trouble. Please take care of her.”

He stood up and took a step back.

This action made Qiao Sisi misunderstand, thinking he was leaving.

She quickly asked, “Are you leaving?”

Her voice trembled.

Both from emotional agitation and fear.

Was Fang Zhou really leaving just after arriving?

Did she scare him away?

As Zhu Jie had said, no one could tolerate someone else’s bad temper forever.

Not even family, let alone a lover like Fang Zhou.

Qiao Sisi began to wonder if she was asking for too much.

But what had she done wrong?

She was just an ordinary woman wanting a response.

She blamed Qin Yun.

That wicked woman must have used something to blackmail Fang Zhou into this.

Thinking of Qin Yun, Qiao Sisi’s rationality returned.

She looked sharply at Fang Zhou and asked, “Is it because Qin Yun brings you benefits that you’re with her, Fang Zhou?”

Qiao Sisi’s direct words tore away the pretense between Fang Zhou and Qin Yun.

Fang Zhou’s face turned pale, as if he had fallen into an ice cave.

Lies never hurt; the truth is the sharp blade.

Because she was right, that was why he was with Qin Yun.

Damn it, Fang Zhou.

His voice suddenly became hoarse.

He couldn’t stay in this room any longer.

He turned and said seriously to Qiao Sisi, “This is between me and her. You don’t need to speculate.”

“If my presence causes you trouble, I sincerely apologize.

Let’s not contact each other anymore. Take care of yourself. I’m leaving.”

With that, Fang Zhou didn’t look at Qiao Sisi’s expression or reaction and strode towards the door.

Rationality returned, Qiao Sisi bit her lip, stubbornly watching his departing figure, not calling him back.

She knew that even if she screamed his name, he wouldn’t turn back.

Once Fang Zhou made up his mind, he became cold-hearted, and no one could sway him.

Indeed, the saying was true: men only behave when hung on the wall.

The actress on the hospital bed slowly smiled.

The nurse, witnessing the whole scene, didn’t dare say a word.

Wow, what a dramatic scene!