Sweet Cohabitation Romcom With My Senior Girlfriend and Alcohol Starts At Twenty - Volume 1 Chapter 3.8

◇Interlude◇

“Maybe I did something a little mean.”

When I close my eyes, I see my lover, his face contorted in discomfort. Yet, he also seems to be enjoying it.

Seeing him make such a pained expression, I can’t help but feel a little malicious.

But even so, he insisted it was a reward, right up to the limit.

Hearing that, I can’t help but want to be even more wickedly serious.

It still makes me feel guilty even it’s the result of a feeling of loneliness left alone in the living room.

It must have been tough for him. He must have been panicked when I held him back from going to the restroom.

It must have been hard to endure.

But I’m sorry, Takashi-kun. Just a little bit.

I just wanted you to understand, even if it’s just a tiny bit.

“I still have a long way to go…”

Just seeing you next to another girl squeezes my heart so tight.

Even if it means narrowing your circle of friends, my jealousy gets the better of me…

I’m sorry, Takashi-kun.

I love you more seriously than you might think…

Sigh. I take a deep breath.

I need to calm my nerves before Takashi-kun comes back, or I’ll end up causing him more distress.

“I wonder if Takashi-kun is angry…”

I caress the spot where Takashi-kun was sitting just moments ago, over and over with the palm of my hand.

Even as I feel the warmth fading, I can’t let go. I don’t want to let go.

Even if Takashi-kun’s warmth is no longer directed at me, I want to stay by his side forever.

I can’t imagine a life without Takashi-kun anymore. I’m completely addicted to Takashi-kun.

I always think about Takashi-kun, wanting to see his troubled face, but the fear of being disliked is unbearable, and when I’m alone like this, the anxiety is overwhelming.

When Takashi-kun is by my side, I feel good, but I start thinking about unpleasant things as soon as we’re apart.

It’s been a year since this kind of life began.

A year has passed, but my addiction to Takashi-kun has only accelerated.

Even though I know he’s in the same house, being together makes me never want to be apart.

“Really… I still have a long way to go…”

Thump. I lay my whole body down where the warmth is nearly gone.

Faintly, I can smell his scent.

Ah, you really were patient with me.

With a sense of guilt, I can feel his conscientiousness, having endured to the very limit.

“…Hehe. I’m no match for your tolerance, Takashi-kun.”

My heart swells. Even though we’re apart, I can feel Takashi-kun and my heartbeat quickens.

Ah, I need to take another deep breath.

Yet, unlike before, I found myself smiling right now.