After Breaking Off the Engagement, I Started Pursuing My Master - Chapter 236

Chapter 236: To Kiss or Not to Kiss

Jiang Huai was suffering from insomnia again.

The room was so quiet that he could hear his own breathing and heartbeat. But this time, he realized his insomnia wasn’t because he wanted to do something to Luo Yueguan; rather, he actually began to doubt whether he had fallen for Luo Yueguan.

No, don’t let it be.

Jiang Huai covered his head and rolled around in bed.

He could openly admit that he had lusted after Luo Yueguan’s body, but now he found himself restless because Luo Yueguan was unhappy. He kept tossing and turning, wondering for a long time when it all started.

Was it initially just desire or perhaps arrogant pity? When exactly had that seed been planted?

After rolling around a dozen times without finding an answer or falling asleep, he decided to go to the deck for some fresh air. When he dressed and opened the door, he suddenly saw Luo Yueguan sitting at the edge of the deck.

She sat quietly at the edge of the spirit boat, surrounded by clouds that blurred her figure. Her dress fluttered in the wind as she gazed up at the bright moon, seemingly entranced and not noticing Jiang Huai opening the door.

Jiang Huai hesitated for a moment, then chose not to step out. Instead, he stood quietly behind the door crack, watching her for a long, long time until Luo Yueguan stood up and went back to her room. Only then did he carefully open the door and sit down at the spot where Luo Yueguan had been sitting.

The moon was lonely and desolate, and Jiang Huai sat there alone for a very long time. The wind gradually sobered him up, but he couldn’t feel sleepy. He tried to untangle the threads in his heart, but every time he sorted out many, he would look back to find them entangled again.

He gave up trying to sort them out and just silently watched the moon for a long time before finally standing up.

Then, he reached out and knocked on the door.

…

“I thought you wouldn’t come,” Luo Yueguan’s cold voice came from inside the room.

“But I still came.”

“Why did you come?”

“I don’t know, I wanted to talk to you.”

“And then?”

“Just to talk.”

“You always hide yourself so well. You know that if you come… maybe I’ll want more than just talk.”

“Maybe it’s an illusion.”

“What?”

“I mean… maybe what you need isn’t someone to satisfy your desires, but just someone by your side, even if they do nothing but hold you, that’s enough. You’re like that, and I think I am too.”

“Now you say such nice things, but who knows what you’ll do once I let you in… Will you tempt me to do something?”

“Then I won’t come in, shall we just talk?” Jiang Huai sat down by the door.

“Talk about what?”

“I don’t know, I kept tossing and turning, unable to sleep, always suspecting that I might have fallen for you.”

“So? Do you think I’d be secretly pleased? I’m not. I don’t need to know whether you like me or not. Whether you do or don’t, it makes no difference to me; I don’t care.”

“What do you care about then?”

“I don’t know, maybe I don’t care about anything.”

“Right.” Jiang Huai replied softly, then asked, “Are you going to sleep?”

“Yes, I was just about to.”

“Then… I won’t disturb you, you go to sleep first?”

“Because you heard that I don’t care whether you like me or not, you want to run away again?”

“No, I just don’t want to disturb your rest.”

“The real way not to disturb my rest is not to knock on the door. Once you knock… I won’t be able to sleep again.”

“So shall I sleep holding you?”

“See, you still say you’re not a shameless dog.”

Luo Yueguan’s voice carried a tone of resentment.

Jiang Huai suddenly couldn’t help but laugh.

“What are you laughing at?”

“Nothing, just laughing at myself. You’re right.”

At that moment, he suddenly realized that Luo Yueguan was never as fragile as he thought. So he stood up, ready to go back to his room, convinced he wouldn’t suffer from insomnia anymore. But just as he took a step, the door behind him suddenly opened.

“Come in,” Luo Yueguan’s lips moved slightly, her eyes cold.

Jiang Huai paused, looking back at her, suddenly feeling guilty, “Maybe I shouldn’t come in… you go to sleep.”

Luo Yueguan kicked him lightly on his body with her leg.

Jiang Huai was about to complain of pain, but before he could speak, Luo Yueguan made a motion to kick again, so he obediently kept quiet, looking at Luo Yueguan in front of him. She had changed into a light purple silk nightgown, the hem outlining her graceful figure, her skin white and soft to the touch.

“I warned you that if you stubbornly knocked on my door, you wouldn’t be allowed to leave,” Luo Yueguan said, arms crossed and a cold smile on her cheeks.

“So when you said that, did you hope I would come or not?”

Luo Yueguan didn’t speak, and Jiang Huai stared at her for several seconds before cautiously guessing, “You hoped I would come, but not to mess around?”

Luo Yueguan kicked him again with a huff, but this time Jiang Huai held her leg tightly, “Stop kicking, or you’ll kick the child silly.”

He let go, and Luo Yueguan withdrew her leg, giving him a cold glance, “So are you coming in or not?”

“I’ll come in, but…”

Luo Yueguan scoffed, “Same bed, but no intimacy?”

“Exactly, that’s what I mean.”

“Fine,” Luo Yueguan tilted her chin slightly.

“Promise to let me use my hand on you ten times, and I’ll let you in.”

“Ten times would kill me,” Jiang Huai’s mouth twitched slightly.

“So five times then?”

Jiang Huai took a step back, “I didn’t come to talk about love and desire with you.”

“Then what do you want to do?”

“We could lie in bed and chat…”

“Chat about what?”

“I don’t know, maybe it’s also okay not to say anything.”

Luo Yueguan turned and walked back into the room, and after a second or two, Jiang Huai heard her cold response, “Come in.”

…

The lights in the room were all extinguished, leaving only the sound of their breathing and heartbeats in the darkness. In fact, Jiang Huai had no idea what he wanted to say; he just suddenly realized that during the moments he was tossing and turning alone in bed, his feelings for Luo Yueguan had become more than just a craving for her body, just like the day he saw the tears in her eyes.

“So what shall we talk about to pass the time?” Luo Yueguan suddenly asked.

“Actually, I hadn’t thought of anything.”

“Useless man.”

To this, Jiang Huai could only respond with a wry smile and a nod. The two continued to gaze into the darkness, neither closing their eyes. The distance between them seemed to fluctuate, now distant, now close, until Luo Yueguan’s hand suddenly moved over, lightly touching his.

Jiang Huai reached out and gently held Luo Yueguan’s soft, delicate hand in his palm.

“Your hand is so cold.”

“If you dislike it, don’t touch it.”

“No, I’m warming it up for you.”

Jiang Huai gently held her delicate hand as the inky darkness enveloped them both. Luo Yueguan suddenly asked, “What’s your wish?”

“A wish?”

“Yes, your wish. You asked me about mine before, now it’s your turn to tell me.”

“My wish… is probably that one day my master will finally be moved by me, reveal her feelings, and then live together every day with my master, Qingyu, Wanwan, and Bai Li?”

“Do you think with Chu Xianning’s personality, even if she admits to having feelings for you, that she could lower her pride and live with the other women by your side?”

“That’s why it’s a wish. Wishes are wishes because they’re not so easy to fulfill.”

“What if you can’t fulfill it in this lifetime?”

“Then I’ll have to give up on my master.”

“I thought your affection for Chu Xianning was truly sincere and passionate. Turns out you’d choose to back down.”

“Should I give up the other girls for my master? I can’t do that… so it has to be that way. Alright, I usually don’t think about these things, but now you’ve got me starting to lose sleep again.”

“It’s your own fault for being greedy.”

“Yes, yes, yes.”

“Also, your wish doesn’t even include my name?”

Luo Yueguan’s tone rose slightly, seemingly a bit displeased.

“God, my wish is already hard enough to fulfill. Adding you to it would be a complete fantasy. In some ways, you’re even scarier than Chu Xianning.”

“How so?”

“To me, my master always seemed like a distant star, unattainable. But you’re different; you always seem to be near and far, making me doubt whether I’m important to you. Maybe you need me, maybe you don’t, it feels like I’ve never really reached the bottom of your heart…”

“That’s just what you think.” Luo Yueguan turned her face away.

“You talk too much. Anyway, I’m bored, let me find some amusement.”

“What do you want to do?”

“I’ve tried with hands, let’s see how long you can last if I use my feet?”

“No, let’s not.”

“Why?”

“It’ll be troublesome. You’ll have to bathe again.”

“So you want me to use a method that I can swallow completely?”

“No, that’s not… Often, I never even think about those things, but you deliberately lead me there, and then say I deceived you. You’re completely unreasonable.”

“Why should I be reasonable with you?”

Luo Yueguan continued in her own way, then said, “What if your master wanted to step on you?”

“Luo Yueguan is Luo Yueguan, Chu Xianning is Chu Xianning. See, you’re the one who’s steering the conversation in a weird direction again… Can’t we talk about pure love?”

“Pure love? You mean like kids playing house?”

“Yes, like kids playing house, holding hands and chatting, kissing and laughing like silly children.”

“I don’t want to do something so boring.”

“Can’t you be good for once?”

Jiang Huai turned around, looking at Luo Yueguan who was in front of him. He reached out his hand, and Luo Yueguan, reluctantly, moved closer, nestling into his embrace.

“You can’t kiss me.”

“Oh okay.”

“You’re not even asking why!” Luo Yueguan, dissatisfied, pinched his waist.

“Why?”

“Because if you kiss me… I’ll want to dual cultivate with you.”

“Can’t you just not want to?”

“I can’t do it, can you?”

“I think I can.”

“Then I can too, let’s kiss.”

“Or… maybe we shouldn’t?”

Jiang Huai suddenly felt a bit uneasy, but before he could finish his thought, Luo Yueguan’s eyes were fixed on him, murmuring, “Three, two…”

Before she reached one, Jiang Huai leaned in closer, and Luo Yueguan, satisfied, raised her legs and leaned in.

The room was left with only the sound of rapid breathing and the wet sound of lips and tongues meeting.