I Went Back to Being a High School Student Again, but I Was Rejected by My Childhood Friend, Whom I Thought Was In Love With Me, So I tried to Suicide With the Most Beautiful Girl In the School. - Chapter 4

Black History

“Kissho… “

(Slang word that abbreviates ‘creepy’. Similar to ‘kimoi’)

　Natsuki muttered, her face scrunched up as she heard my words.

　Then she backed away from me without looking away from me, as if she were trying to escape from a bear, and escaped from the rooftop.

　I stand alone on the rooftop, drenched by the rain.

　And then…

“I’ve done it again…. ! “

　I mutter and crouch down.

　From Natsuki’s point of view, the person she hates suddenly talks to her and asks her to die together.

　It must be nothing but weird.

　And when I think back to my position calmly, a 28-year-old man asking a high school girl to die with her is…

　To put it mildly, anyone can’t help but think he’s crazy.

　No wonder Koyoi rejected me and Natsuki said, [Kissho… ]

　Even though the time leap has confused me, I should have been more careful in my actions.

　I’ve created too much new black history in this world…

　I want someone to kill me, but I know there is no one like that.

　I get up and walk weakly.

　――Let’s just go home.

　I open the rooftop door and walk back into the classroom.

　After closing the door, I go down the stairs with my shoulders slumped, and as I am about to go back to my classroom to get my bag, someone says,

“Genno, what’s wrong with you too?”

　Said a young male teacher, Kunio Atsuta, to me with a surprised look on his face.

　He is friendly, easy to talk to, and popular among the students.

“No, this is… “

　But it is hard to explain.

　I mean, he said, “you too” earlier. He probably saw Natsuki drenched in the rain, too.

“I passed by Natsuki earlier, what’s wrong with you guys? “

　He said worriedly when I kept silent.

　As I expected.

“Have you heard anything from Natsuki? “

“No, she got away.”

　She must have thought it was too much trouble to explain the situation.

　But that’s a good thing.

“…Natsuki was listening to my rant.”

　I’ll try to cover it up by telling a lie like that.

“Listening…? What were you talking about? “

“You know, Koyoi dumped me in front of everyone the other day. Now, things are a bit awkward because of that…”

　When I said that, Atsuta-sensei nodded his head and muttered, [Youth…]

“So, I wanted to talk to anyone who would listen to me, and Natsuki was listening to me.”

“…why was it Natsuki? “

　Atsuta-sensei’s eyes sharpened a little as I explained the situation to him.

　The teacher knows that Natsuki has a bad relationship with the students in the class.

　It’s not surprising that he might think that Natsuki might be having some trouble with me.

“She doesn’t have many friends, so I thought she wouldn’t tell anyone anything I told her.

　When I said that, Atsuta-sensei said with a straight face

“That’s just plain rude, isn’t it, Genno…? “

　He said,

“Ah, yes.”

　I nodded my head because he suddenly retorted me in a serious tone.

“Well, I understand that, but… why are you so wet? “

　Then, Atsuta-sensei asked me an obvious question.

　Since it is forbidden to enter the rooftop, I can’t give an honest explanation. Of course, I can’t give a rational excuse either.

　Anyway, I have to push through with momentum…!

“It was hard to talk in the classroom. But in the rainy hallway, there was no one around, which was convenient. Besides, I felt like the rain would wash away my black past… “

　I look out the window with a distant look.

　Then I looked at Atsuta-sensei with a sideways glance, and he was looking at me with very kind eyes.

　It seems that he is sincerely concerned about a weak adolescent boy.

　――His kindness is painful to me!

　Inside of me, I’m an uncle older than Atsuta-sensei…

　A single tear spontaneously fell from the corner of my eyes.

“I understand your situation, but it’s not good to make her go with you in the rain, is it? “

　Atsuta-sensei wiped my tears with his fingertips, then gently hugged my shoulder and said

“Yes, I’ll be careful from now on.”

　Atsuta-sensei smiled at my words and then said

“Genno, you should be good friends with Natsuki.”

　Then he patted me on the shoulder twice.

“Well then, go home early, take a bath and stay warm, study a lot, and go to bed, you student need to take the exam seriously.”

　I guess that’s the end of the conversation with me.

　He said this and started to walk down the hallway.

　One more black history is added, but I’m glad it didn’t turn out to be a big trouble…

　By the way, he wiped my tears with his fingertips and hugged me――Isn’t the distance between him and the students too close?