If You Wish to Have Me - Chapter 103

What had the two of them done on this bed just a few hours ago?

Seyard, who had first laid Kisa down here with gentle hands, had showered her with kisses.

In contrast to the one they had shared in the hallway, these were sweet and almost coquettish kisses.

While Kisa was lost in mindless contact with him, she suddenly heard a soft thud.

It turned out to be the sound of the coat that Kisa had hastily taken off and carelessly placed on the bed falling to the floor due to their movements.

As if that sound was some kind of signal, Seyard’s lips pulled away.

Kisa was catching her breath when she realized that the buttons of her nightgown were half undone.

Moreover, every single button on Seyard’s white shirt was undone as well.

Why was it that in that moment, a slight fear suddenly welled up within her?

‘So we’re really doing this.’

She was about to step into an unknown world she had never experienced before.

She had no intention of backing down after coming this far, but feeling nervous was beyond her control.

But then Seyard, who had been sitting up and looking down at his lover, silently reached out and took Kisa’s hand.

Soon her pale hand touched his left chest.

Thump thump. Kisa felt the fierce beating through the bare skin with no fabric between them.

“I love you.”

A confession that came almost simultaneously with that.

An expression that showed no composure whatsoever, slightly trembling eyes, and a desperate voice.

Ah, Seyard is the same as me.

Kisa understood completely.

At this moment, both of them were in much the same situation.

Then her last remaining fear melted away like snow.

It was endearing that the man who was always so composed was revealing such urgency and being tormented by desire in front of her.

And with this person she loved, she could face any unknown world together.

Kisa withdrew her hand from his heart and willingly opened her arms.

Welcoming the strange intruder who had suddenly appeared in her life one day and stolen her heart completely.

Seyard, finding such a Kisa lovely, carefully brushed aside her hair, then undid the remaining buttons.

And then with eager hands…

Suddenly Kisa shook her head vigorously.

From that point on, it was so embarrassing that it was difficult to recall the details with a clear mind.

‘Ridiculous. Acting like this when I did even more shameless things while perfectly conscious.’

While mocking herself in one corner of her mind, Kisa buried her face in the pillow and wrapped herself tightly in the sheets.

Seyard, seeing her like this, made a puzzled sound.

“Kisa?”

She wanted to hide. She didn’t know what kind of face she should make when looking at Seyard now.

How had they spent such an intense and passionate time last dawn? It felt like she had been under some kind of spell.

Then she heard gentle laughter from above her head.

Seyard, as if he understood exactly why Kisa was acting this way, stroked her disheveled hair on the bed.

“You must be hungry, aren’t you? I’ll tell the servants to bring brunch.”

Now that he mentioned it, she was indeed hungry, so Kisa nodded with her face still buried in the pillow.

“Then I’ll go tell them and be right back. Wait just a moment. Oh, and I’ve placed your clothes on the table over there, in case you were looking for them.”

Having said this, Seyard leaned down to give Kisa a quick kiss on her ear, then got up from the bed.

Glancing up slightly, she saw him quickly put on his wrinkled shirt and head toward the door.

After hearing the door open and close, Kisa hurriedly sprang into action.

She planned to quickly get dressed before Seyard returned.

To remain in her natural state long after their lovemaking had ended?

By Kisa’s standards, this was absolutely unacceptable.

So she hastily got out of bed, but…

“Ugh.”

A groan escaped from Kisa’s lips before she had even taken a few steps. It was due to the dull pain she felt throughout her entire body.

For a noble lady whose only exercise had been brisk walks, making love was quite an arduous activity.

Above all, the love that Seyard had shown last dawn was too passionate and overwhelming for the inexperienced Kisa to handle.

‘I never imagined it would be to that extent…’

No, this wasn’t what was important right now.

Kisa tried to calm her flushed face and managed to walk to the table with difficulty.

From the looks of it, he seemed to have read Kisa’s embarrassed feelings and deliberately stepped away.

Unlike herself, who couldn’t even walk properly, his composed appearance was rather frustrating, but she couldn’t let his consideration go to waste.

“Ah, here it is.”

As Seyard had said, the nightgown that Kisa had been wearing until dawn was neatly folded on the table.

Had he folded it? She was sure that when she last saw it, it had been tangled with Seyard’s clothes and thrown on the floor.

In any case, Kisa moved her weak body to put on the nightgown.

But during this process, she realized one unexpected fact.

It was the vivid traces of dawn that remained clearly on her neck and collarbone.

“…Right. That’s what happened.”

Come to think of it, it was natural that the marks in these places wouldn’t be covered by clothes.

Strangely enough, she hadn’t thought about it at all at the time.

More accurately, she hadn’t had the leisure to worry about such things.

Kisa spent a moment unable to do anything, touching her skin, then soon gave up.

How could she cover this when scarves don’t just appear out of nowhere?

Giving up, she sat in a chair and was massaging her particularly stiff lower back when Seyard returned.

“I’ve asked them to prepare the meal here. Please wait just a little longer.”

“Yes, I understand.”

“…Why are you looking at me with those eyes?”

“What kind of eyes?”

When she asked this, he made a troubled expression and sat in the chair next to Kisa.

“You’re being too much. Earlier you wouldn’t even give me a glance, and now you’re glaring at me.”

“I, I wasn’t glaring.”

Kisa protested against Seyard’s words while bashfully looking away.

To be honest, it seemed like her gaze did contain a bit of resentment. Just a little bit.

But wasn’t he being too much? To leave such visible marks…

‘It’s not like he left other places completely untouched either.’

Moreover, she felt somewhat wronged because it seemed like only she had suffered.

Look at that. Unlike someone who had just barely gotten up, look at that fresh and fluffy appearance.

Seyard seemed to have woken up long before Kisa and had already washed up.

Whether he had helped her or not, Kisa’s body wasn’t particularly sticky either, but still, looking at herself in the mirror, she couldn’t hide her haggard appearance.

Furthermore, Kisa had drunk more than her usual amount of alcohol the night before, so she was also suffering from a bit of a hangover, making it a double burden.

He rested his chin on the table and looked at Kisa, making a humming sound.

“Somehow I think I know what you’re thinking.”

“…Really? Is it that obvious?”

Kisa’s body stiffened as she awkwardly held her hand to her neck.

Then Seyard smiled broadly.

“It’s because we’re close. I can somehow tell. How about we call it even?”

“What are you talking about?”

“The point Kisa is dissatisfied with me about.”

His voice lowered as if he were sharing some secret.

“Actually, my back stings a little too.”

“Your back?”

Kisa’s eyes widened.

She couldn’t guess why he was complaining about back pain.

Suddenly, why his back? Did he injure his back?

After thinking for a moment, Kisa’s face suddenly turned red.

Looking back carefully, there had been someone who had dug her nails into Seyard’s back last dawn.

She had absolutely no intention of hurting him, but still.

“…Alright.”

She answered in a barely audible voice.

Let’s call it even, she said.

Not long after that, their brunch was delivered.

The person who appeared pulling a trolley with food was Lily, the Duke’s maid that Seyard had previously assigned to Kisa.

Embarrassed by the appearance of someone she knew well, Kisa pretended to be distracted while Lily prepared the meal.

However, Lily finished the preparations without showing any sign of anything unusual, and then withdrew with her usual smiling face, saying to enjoy the meal.

She was indeed a servant of the Hillan ducal house.

“If you need my help, please let me know.”

“Thank you for the offer, but I can eat with my own hands.”

Kisa firmly refused Seyard’s offer to feed her personally.

It wasn’t as if both her arms were broken – eating like a baby was absolutely unacceptable.

Incidentally, the scary thing about him was that you couldn’t tell whether he was joking or being serious.

Even after finishing the meal, which consisted mainly of light dishes, the two didn’t leave the room.

Somehow it felt like this time would end if they left this place.

Seyard brought some urgent work to handle here and occasionally massaged Kisa’s body as she complained of muscle pain.

Kisa slouched lazily and watched him work.

“You know, Seyard.”

In the meantime, Kisa, who was sitting on the sofa leaning against her lover’s shoulder, spoke up.

“When we get married and go to the estate, let’s visit your parents and elder brother first to pay our respects.”

The graves of the three people would naturally be on the Hillan family estate.

Now that she was truly going to become family with him, she suddenly wanted to formally introduce herself to them.

“…Alright. Let’s do that.”

Seyard nodded, then brought up something else.

“Actually, unlike my parents, my brother’s coffin was buried in the capital.”

“What?”

This was an unexpected story.