Ranobe Mo Ore Mo Sukina Gyaru - Volume 1 Chapter 8.5

Interlude II – Me and Kanachamu

After saying goodbye to Yoda at the McDonald’s in Omiya, I took the Keihin-Tōhoku Line and headed to Yono-Honcho Station.

Once I got off at the station, I walked for about five minutes and arrived home.

“I’m back—”

“Welcome back—”

After exchanging the greetings with my mom, I washed my hands and face and then retreated to my room.

Wearing comfortable clothes that I could relax in, I laid down on my bed and started playing with my smartphone.

I opened Instagram and sent a message to my best friend. By the way, the message went something like this,

『I got weirdly flustered when Yoda said something super negative, even though it was about himself. 』『What kind of emotion is this??』

“Hmm, I don’t understand…”

It was full of things I just couldn’t understand.

Seriously, I still don’t get what Yoda was trying to say… I thought about it a lot on the train ride home, but what on earth is this inferiority complex he’s carrying?

Like, is not being able to accept himself really the reason he can’t make friends?

Shouldn’t that have nothing to do with becoming friends?

I just don’t get it.

And above all, what I don’t understand the most are my own feelings.

Why did I end up hugging him, someone who’s so troublesome and makes things difficult just by being around…?

While I was lost in these thoughts, I received a reply from my best friend Kanachamu.

『Your message is way too abstract, I don’t get it.』

『Explain it better.』

She said—so I tried to explain today’s events in as much detail as possible to Kanachamu.

In response, she sent me this message,

『From what you’re saying, aren’t both you and Yoda overthinking things?』

『Huh?』

『Yoda might be overthinking, but am I really overthinking?』

『Yeah.』『Miona is also definitely overthinking things.』 『You’re oddly clever, aren’t you?』 『Maybe clever people are actually idiot.』 『Hey, you’re an idiot wwWWW!』

『Shut up.』 『I got a math score of eight, so you don’t deserve to mock me!』

『Why are we talking about math scores now?』 『Are you bragging? I’ll slash your face with the nails I got done today later!』

After such messages, I received a photo of nails from Kanachamu.

…Wow, they’re so cute! Kanachamu seriously has great nail sense! Amazing!

『Your nails look amazing!』 『Where did you get them?』

『I went to Ginza for them.』

『Zagin is crazy』 『Did you get sushi in Zagin?』

『Sushi is just ordinary there』

(TN:Za-gin, Gin-za.)

Although I was supposed to be talking about Yoda to Kanachamu, in the midst of such digressions, I engaged in a fun message exchange with my best friend.

…To be honest, even if I couldn’t put a name to this feeling, I thought it would be okay as long as I understood that it felt comfortable, but Kanachamu is smart.

In the middle of our conversation, she suddenly said something that hit the nail on the head.

『About that, Miona.』 『When Yoda showed you his vulnerable side, you got flustered?』 『The reason you wanted to hug Yoda…』 『Ah, that’s it!』 『Well, you know, like when a dog shows its belly, it’s cute, right?』 『I’m a genius.』

『You think so?』 『Showing his vulnerable side to increase my fondness…』 『Maybe Yoda is a schemer…?』

『No way.』 『If that were a scheme, Miona would see through it, right?』 『Isn’t Yoda just a boring otaku?』

『Ah?』 『Yoda is not just a boring otaku, okay?』

『Don’t get mad just because I’m speaking my true feelings.』 『At least I’m not completely wrong, right?』

After receiving that message from Kanachamu, I blinked and thought to myself, ‘…Maybe.’

…Because, the things Yoda said at McDonald’s today were not cool at all.

Despite that, I found myself wanting to hug him at that moment.

And in the next instant of thinking so, I was already hugging him.

Surely, I think Ryosuke Yoda is a sensitive guy.

Delicate and sensitive. Thoughtful and timid.

A guy who has and can voice his own ideas but struggles to have confidence.

In that moment when he revealed his true self without hiding anything, I felt… an inexplicable endearing feeling.

It’s not love. Still not love. It was just that he was irresistibly adorable, and I felt the desire to hold him tightly in my arms.

“He’s so cute, I… I want to make him mine…”

——Then I would be Yoda’s too.

After thinking like that, I wondered how it was different from being in love. Isn’t this just simple possessiveness?

But now, I really don’t want Yoda to be taken by someone else.

Even though we’re only friends right now, and I’m actually fine with that…

Could it be that I’m the possessive type?

Like, I can’t stand the thought of Yoda being with another girl who isn’t me?

Seriously, that’s bad. I don’t want Yoda to find out about this and dislike me.

While contemplating such matters, I recalled the moment when I hugged Yoda.

It’s a bit surprising that despite my efforts, my relationship with Yoda hasn’t progressed at all, but even so, I couldn’t help but think, ‘Isn’t that okay?’ Because I just want to be with him like this.

It’s not about wanting to have sex. It’s not even about wanting to kiss.

…Well, I must admit, I’m starting to want those things a little bit.

But that’s not what I really want.

Even if people say gals and otakus can’t be friends, that’s fine.

However, if there’s just one thing I want—I want him to stay with me, just like it’s a natural thing to do so…

“Is…isn’t that kind of gross!?”

While poking fun at my own thoughts, I opened up LINE.

Then, upon finding a certain boy’s name, I opened the chat screen and sent him this message.

『I’ve come to a conclusion!』

『My desire to hug Yoda was real.』

『But don’t get too carried away!』

『It’s not like I actually love Yoda or anything.』

Even though I said that, I’m actually starting to love him.

I hope you can understand the complexity of a young girl’s heart!