There’re Always Paranoid Thoughts to Monopolize Me - Chapter 1.1
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“No!” Qin Ke screamed, abruptly sitting up in bed, her back drenched in cold sweat.
The flames that had been so close to her seemed to have not yet faded from her retina, her eyes still stinging and red.
It wasn’t until the faint chirping of cicadas from outside the window slowly seeped into her ears that Qin Ke’s tense body gradually relaxed.
So…she hadn’t died yet.
The darkness and redness in front of her eyes were probably because she had slept too long in the sunlight coming through the window, and hadn’t adjusted yet.
Just as Qin Ke was about to relax, her body suddenly stiffened.
Cicadas?
But she clearly remembered that before the fire broke out, outside the villa where he had imprisoned her, it was a snowy winter. How could she possibly hear cicadas?
Moreover, the bed she was sleeping in now, and the single bedroom in front of her, which didn’t seem too big, were clearly the house she lived in with her foster parents and sister Qin Yan when she was in high school…
Could it be…
As if suddenly realizing something, Qin Ke’s pupils contracted sharply in her almond-shaped eyes. Without caring about anything else, she threw off the thin blanket on her body—
Two slender, jade-like legs were revealed under her eyes. There were no winding and ugly scars, let alone the terrifying broken bones— the legs in front of her were delicate and white, like flawless jade, with beautiful lines extending to her petite ankles, as beautiful as a work of art.
This was the part of her body that Huo Zhonglou was most infatuated with. After it was ruined in that incident, it enraged him, and there were countless nights when only the moonlight came in through the window, she’d be pressed on the bed by him, and kiss those scars like a madman…
If everything in front of her was real.
That would mean…the past she had been daydreaming about, longing to return to, had actually come— and it was the eve of the start of her first year of high school— none of the misfortunes had happened, she hadn’t been tricked by her foster parents onto Huo Zhonglou’s bed after her sister ran away from her wedding, she hadn’t been crippled by her sister Qin Yan and lost her legs, and she hadn’t been imprisoned in his villa.
Tears of joy were about to fall from Qin Ke’s eyes.
A few minutes later, after searching through the entire familiar yet strange room, Qin Ke finally found her phone.
With trembling fingertips, she opened the calendar.
Seeing the date on the screen, Qin Ke’s hand loosened, and the phone fell onto the woolen blanket on the floor.
She didn’t bother to pick it up, raising her hand to cover her face.
Tears silently slid down her sharp chin.
She really did die in that fire.
And she had returned to ten years ago.
At this time, she was about to enter her first year of high school, at the most beautiful age, like a blooming flower.
However–
She would no longer be deceived by her foster parents, nor would she trust that snake-hearted sister again. She wanted to take back everything that belonged to her and live her life again!
Now…there was still time for everything.
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When the bedroom door was knocked, Qin Ke was sitting behind the desk in front of the window, writing and drawing on a notebook.
Hearing the sound, she alertly covered the notebook in her hand and turned her head.
The bedroom door opened, and the face of her foster mother, Yin Chuanfang, appeared. Qin Ke gritted her teeth, forcing herself to show a gentle and harmless smile.
Just like the original her from those years.
“Mom.”
“Xiao Ke, don’t work too hard, come downstairs for dinner, okay?”
“Mm, I’ll go down right away.”
Yin Chuanfang closed the door and left.
She obviously didn’t notice Qin Ke’s unnaturalness. In fact, she didn’t really care about her adopted daughter as much as she pretended to.
In the past, Qin Ke thought they were genuinely good to her, but now, having lived once again, Qin Ke was very clear— Yin Chuanfang and Qin Hanyi would take her in and try to treat her well, just for the inheritance attached to her custody rights. Once they got it, they would, like in her previous life, unhesitatingly throw her away, this “burden”.
The things they did to her in her previous life made Qin Ke feel that she couldn’t stay in this house for a moment. But thinking of the will she only found out about later…
The time was not yet right, she had to take it slow.
Qin Ke bit her lip and turned back.
The notebook she had covered with her hand was revealed, and on it, in chronological order, were the things from her previous life that Qin Ke could still try to recall.
Also, the wrong choices she regretted for many years afterwards.
“I won’t make the same mistake twice.”
In the mirror diagonally across the table, there was still a beautiful and charming girl, but in those beautiful eyes, the original innocence was gradually stripped away, leaving only a determined emotion.
Qin Ke picked up the eraser beside her hand and erased all the light pencil marks on the notebook from back to front.
Until the word at the very top.
“High school entrance examination preference.”
As if remembering something, a hint of hatred flashed in Qin Ke’s eyes. She clenched the eraser and forcefully erased those four characters.
……..
Qin Ke walked down the wooden narrow staircase.
She still had an impression of this house in her memory, but it was not deep. She only remembered that it was a batch of two-story buildings built in the last century. The space in the house was not large, with only a few dozen square meters per floor. Even the dining room downstairs was squeezed into one room with the kitchen, making it seem very cramped.
At that moment, Qin Yan’s family of three was having dinner in the small dining room.
Seeing Qin Ke coming downstairs, Qin Yan, who had been absent-minded, brightened her eyes, quickly put down her chopsticks, and walked over.
She reached out and grabbed Qin Ke’s wrist, winked at her, and then pulled her outside.
Behind them, Yin Chuanfang’s frowning voice came.
“Yan Yan, why aren’t you eating quickly, what are you doing pulling your sister away?”
“We have something to do, we’ll be back soon.”
Responding, Qin Yan impatiently dragged Qin Ke out the door.
She didn’t notice that the girl behind her, who used to be innocent and harmless, was watching her back with a cold gaze.
Qin Ke would never forget that in her previous life, after Qin Yan ran away from her wedding and fell into despair, she had helped her herself, but because of her jealousy of Huo Zhonglou’s demands on her, she ruthlessly pushed her in front of an oncoming car. She would never forget the heart-wrenching pain when the car ran over her legs…
It was also after that car accident that she realized that Qin Yan had been a snake-hearted person from the beginning, it was just that she was naive and foolish, treating a wolf as a relative.
And at this moment, Qin Ke of course knew why Qin Yan was so anxious.
——
Today was the last day for the registration of high school preferences.
In her previous life, it was also on this day that Qin Yan finally persuaded Qin Ke to change her original preference from the high school department of Qiande High School to a local art school.
In her previous life, until a few years later when she saw through Qin Yan’s true colors, Qin Ke didn’t understand what Qin Yan’s purpose was in doing this.
It wasn’t until later, at a high school reunion, that she finally learned the truth from the jokes of others—just because before this year’s high school entrance, a rumor suddenly spread in Qiande High School.
It was said that Huo Jun, the school tyrant of the high school department, had taken a liking to a girl named Qin Ke in the middle school department.
And Qin Yan was one of Huo Jun’s loyal admirers.
“Xiao Ke, how have you considered that matter??”
Finally pulling her outside, Qin Yan asked eagerly.
“……”
Qin Ke lowered her head, seeming to hesitate. The girl’s delicate and fragile neck was exposed, as if it could be broken by a single hand.
Fair and tender, so delicate that it could be blown apart.
Qin Yan’s eyes flashed with jealousy.
She knew even more clearly that it was far more than just her beautiful neck—her ‘adopted’ sister’s pure and charming face made it impossible for the boys at school to look away.
She was determined not to let Qin Ke appear in Huo Jun’s sight.
Qin Yan gritted her teeth in secret, but continued to persuade with a forced smile on her face.
“Xiao Ke, listen to your sister. Doing what you love is the most important thing. And you have a talent for dance. It would be a pity if you don’t go to an art school.”
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