After Recklessly Courting Death, I Caught the Attention of a Yandere - Chapter 95

Xiao Yueqing was truly caught between laughter and tears.

If someone had said such things to him in the past, even as a joke, Xiao Yueqing would have been angry.

He might have already sent them flying with a blow.

But since these words came from Yun Dan’s mouth, he didn’t feel angry at all.

He even seriously considered what his daughter would look like if he had one.

However, Yun Dan was indeed right about one thing.

He wasn’t bad-looking, so if he had a child, they probably wouldn’t turn out badly either.

But he would probably never have descendants.

He could barely save his own life, so how could he have the mind to consider such things?

Actually, in earlier years, Yue Po had brought it up before him more than once, suggesting he find a woman to marry and have children with.

Even if he were gone by then, at least there would be a child, and Tianqing Manor could have a successor.

But Xiao Yueqing had refused.

He was already a victim of the previous generation’s romantic entanglements.

Even if he were healthy, he wasn’t sure if he was suitable to have a child or build a family.

The shadow that Mu Lan cast over him had followed him throughout his growth.

He had been unloved since birth, so he wasn’t certain he could play the role of a father well.

Moreover, since he didn’t like others, why burden them?

If he really wanted to find someone, he could naturally find plenty of people willing to bear his children.

He simply didn’t want to.

Therefore, Xiao Yueqing still shook his head, maintaining his original answer.

“I’m not suitable to be a father. Being alone is enough for me. The suffering I’ve endured, I don’t want to pass on to others, not even to a child. I’m already a victim of the previous generation. Being able to take care of myself is sufficient.”

Actually, Yun Dan couldn’t truly empathize with Xiao Yueqing’s story.

Because from beginning to end, Xiao Yueqing had never told her what had actually happened in his past.

So when Xiao Yueqing said these words, Yun Dan became curious.

She desperately wanted to know about Xiao Yueqing’s past, to know what had happened to make him become this way.

After thinking for a moment, Yun Dan timidly asked, “Master, when you mentioned being a victim of the previous generation, were you talking about yourself? What happened to you? Can you tell me about it?”

Xiao Yueqing originally didn’t want to bring up those past events with Yun Dan.

Because in his view, bringing up these matters was undoubtedly exposing his old wounds.

But since Yun Dan had asked, he might as well tell her.

“My past is simple. My mother didn’t love my father; she only married him under pressure from the family, because they had been betrothed since childhood. And my mother didn’t want to give birth to me, because she always had her childhood sweetheart in her heart. When she was pregnant with me, she constantly tried every means possible to abort me. If my father hadn’t found people to watch over her, I would never have been born.”

“My father died when I was very young. I don’t know how he died. In any case, one day I woke up to find I no longer had a father, and my mother never liked me either, so I started wearing a mask when I was five or six years old. She said that seeing my face reminded her of my father, and she hated me very much.

Later one day, she left the manor. I always thought she had died, until later I discovered she had married someone else and even had a son.

I originally thought she disliked me because I was a son, but when I saw how good she was to my little brother, willing to do anything for him, I finally realized that actually, she just didn’t like me as a person.”

Yun Dan had never heard Xiao Yueqing mention these things before.

This was the first time she heard him speak of them so matter-of-factly.

Although it sounded like listening to a story, Yun Dan could clearly sense that Xiao Yueqing had spent a great deal of time before he could emerge from these experiences.

“What happened after that?”

This should only be the beginning.

Simply being disliked and abandoned by his mother wouldn’t be enough to make him suddenly turn dark and become a villain.

There must have been some other important event that served as the catalyst.

Villains don’t become villains because they’re born bloodthirsty killers or cruel and inhumane.

Human nature is originally good.

No one is born to be a bad person.

Xiao Yueqing paused, as if calming his emotions.

After a long while, he took a deep breath and continued.

“The year I turned eighteen, my mother came back. I always thought it was because she suddenly remembered she had a son like me and wanted to repair the mother-son relationship that had been broken for over ten years. I never expected that the bowl of plain noodles she cooked for me contained a sedative.

When I woke up, I found myself locked in a secret room. I originally thought someone had attacked Tianqing Manor, but I never imagined that from beginning to end, she had been using and scheming against me. Only then did I learn that my biological younger brother had been poisoned and they couldn’t find an antidote.

My brother was in critical condition, so she thought of me. My mother came from the Tang Sect, so poisons were nothing unusual to her, and she could easily figure out the poison’s formula.

As for the process of creating the antidote, it required constant experimentation, so I became her test subject. I kept wondering how I managed to survive back then, because it was truly painful. I thought I wouldn’t make it.

If it weren’t for the daughter of my father’s old friend who saved me, I really wouldn’t have survived. But even so, those poisons eroded my body, and I won’t live much longer. Death isn’t frightening to me; rather, it’s liberation. I’m just somewhat unwilling to accept it.”

She remembered that when she initially agreed to help Xiao Yueqing search for the treasure map, she had asked him what the treasure map was for.

At that time, Xiao Yueqing hadn’t told her directly, only saying that the treasure map had some connection to him, but he wouldn’t use it to harm people.

Now, combining this with the truth about what happened back then, didn’t that mean that from beginning to end, he had been searching for the treasure map just to save himself?

Regardless of what he had done in the past.

But regarding this matter, Yun Dan truly sympathized with Xiao Yueqing.

The reason he had turned dark was all because he had such a mother.

But Yun Dan still couldn’t understand.

“I don’t understand. Even if she didn’t like your father, she and your father were betrothed since childhood, so the two of them must have been very familiar with each other.

Even taking ten thousand steps back, even if she didn’t like your father, you’re still her biological child. Why would a mother treat her own biological child like that? So there really are mothers in this world who don’t love their own children.”

In comparison, Yun Dan felt she was truly very fortunate.

Although her relationship with her parents was just so-so, not that close.

At least she wouldn’t experience such terrible things.

Putting herself in his shoes, if it were her, she would most likely turn dark too.

She might even go crazier than Xiao Yueqing.